There is part of me that is excited to be moving out of Arizona and someplace knew, and then the other is wondering if it is the right decision. I guess it's a bit of buyer's remorse. I guess it's all because this is new to me, an area that is completely different than Arizona.
Maybe it's seasonal/ winter depression setting in already. Honestly, I don't want to live in Arizona my entire life, but I've never actually be this close to leaving it. I've always just been out of reach of leaving.
I guess it's fear setting in and I am afraid of failing, having to feel like I cannot make it unless I am in Phoenix. I guess it's all because I am so looking forward to moving on and getting something accomplished, that I have more to loose this time. I have already been there and do not want to repeat it. I think I will be ok, but this weekend I will be all alone at my aunt's and that's when these kinds of thoughts come up. When I am all alone the things I don't want to focus on come up.
fallenorra at 5:48 a.m.