The week has gone by so fast and I have still one more paper to do that I have not gotten done. It's the bigger one too. My 5-8 page paper for my European History course on Romanticism. I hate the subject as it is and I thought once I was done with British Literature I would never have to deal with it again. I was wrong obviously. I need to shit down, focus and get to doing it. I have two days since I cannot write it on Tuesday when the paper is due. So I have tomorrow and Monday to get going on it. I also have tons of reading for this week to do.
So things between me and Alex are good. I was bitching a lot and I am sure everyone was annoyed with it. So Thursday my friend Sarah set me up, probably both of us with an intervention. Yeah she sat us down told us to stop it all and talk. She wouldn't sit in our talk, but wanted to set us up for it. Then she said she was going to go and that she didn't think we would talk. Once she left I looked at Alex and told her I knew what Sarah was up to. So we talked, I explained to her about why I feel so uncomfortable with people I don't know, which lead into a talk about Brett. I hated to bring it up, but I figured it was the right time to tell her my reason for it. How I was scared to sleep because how verbally abusive he was and how I was afraid it would turn violent. She understood and apologize again about it. I told her that memory being forced back after not thinking about him or anything related for over 3 years just put me in a horrible mood and then to add the weather to it just made me horrible. So everything is settle and we are going to try to talk about things more if we are annoyed. We are both people who do not like to confront and just ignore it.
One thing that she told me, that Sarah told her when she went to Sarah unsure about how I felt about Alex. She told Alex that I may talk a lot, but that doesn't mean that any of them know me that well. That I do not disclose anything deep or personal. Which I always knew that I keep things inside about myself. I just never had anyone comment on it. I then told Alex that I was just shy and introverted. That while I seem social and share a lot that it's never anything about myself that is... well personal or at a level where friends and best friends separate. I told her that very few people know everything about my life. That it's not like I have dark horrible secrets, just that I am not at the level where I want to disclose them to people.
I was up till 3 am watching movies with Alexa, Sarah and a few other people who came and went. We watch Atonement, Juno and The Notebook. Yes I know that a few of those are not on DVD use your imagination to figure out how we watched them. I liked Atonement and was surprised that I like Juno. Normally, movies like Juno I really do not like. I guess my movie and even music taste has broaden a bit. I guess that's from growing up.
12:43 a.m. - 2008-02-03
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