I hope this will post. I tried to post something the other night, but I do know remember if it actually posted or not.
Anyway, I have been pissed off this entire weekend and possibly this week as well if things continue do go the way they are. My rant about my roommate's bf sleeping over seems so minimal right now. More shit has happen and I just am so pissed that I do not know what to do. Today I have not gone to class or work. I went to the meeting to help same our only vegan/vegetarian restaurant on campus, and in the library right now trying to get done all the school work I want to have done by last night.
What this all stems from is my roommate has issues with me and rather than coming to me and trying to get them resolved right away she has been going to a friend of mine on the floor talking to her about me. Now my friend is a gossip queen and sometimes the things she tells us is not true, so I don't know what to believe. From what I thought, last night, when I asked my roommate about what was wrong and explained to her why I wasn't sleeping and why I have been in a mood. I told her it was due to my own personal trust issues and stress levels. That it wasn't one person's fault it was a just a mass of shit that happened. I thought she was a little better and whatever else was wrong was not dealing with me.
This morning... well actually this afternoon I went to have lunch with my friend and she told me what my roommate obviously did not tell me when I asked her what was going on. I felt kind of under attack really. What I was told is that she thought I hated her, that I do not want a roommate, that I talk too much about my ex roommates, that I talk rudely about them and I think one or two other things that I think have to do with how she doesn't know me at all.
So the first one, about hating her is so not true. I actually liked her and thought I had finally gotten a normal roommate for once. I did not think that we would become instant friends, but at least two people who could get along. I don't see how I can like her if she pulls this crap. The second think about not wanting a roommate is not true. Granted I may feel cursed when it comes to getting a roommate and them totally being psycho, but I know that living on campus I would have to have one. So there's that. The third and forth thing about my ex roommates is totally taken wrongly. I figured rather than her hearing later on that she was my 3rd roommate that I would tell her and explain what happened. So the first week I mentioned the two of them and how it did not work out and why. I stopped because it was not needed and I could tell that she did not really seemed interested. They may still sneak into conversation, but always by me. If I do not like at least one of the roommate and felt like there is something wrong and negative about them to say I will. I cannot be miss positive Susie and LOVE EVERYONE. *insert giggle*
I know we do not socialize much, she kind of stopped trying to talk to me, other than asking questions about the school. She also decided to stop trying to hang out with everyone. She's knew, we all know each other and invitations are not delivered. The only way we do things is just do them. Someone wants to go shopping they go. If are hungry we go eat. I am not going to invite her to places because she's new. I am not like that. As much as I have anti-social tendencies I still stuck my neck out there, I meet people and I got involved in some of the greatest friends I have ever had. I love that fact that I am in the dorms with people, rather than living on my own. Though all the roommate shit I could do without.
The only person who is hearing what I feel is Sarah and she 100% agrees with me. We are just that much a like. I thought that maybe I was just being a rude bitch, but she has told me that she gets it and see my side. And that our friend telling me all of this is not going to help. That I need to not think about it so much and just focus on my classes and school work. She is right, other than needing to get it out here and explain it to a few people I am done. I will only be in the room to sleep and maybe relax or study a bit. Shower and use the bathroom when I am there and socialize when I am not too busy with the more important things. Studying will be done in the library when I am not in class, at work, or working on saving Holy Cow.
So onto the saving the Cow issue. Everyone knows I am vegan, that aside I also went to Oregon other than for the marine biology department was the vegan/vegetarian community or food place at the school. When I found out that there was a place that wall 90% vegan and serves no meat I knew that was my place. Unfortunately because I live on campus I have to eat at approved dining hall facilities to use my mandatory meal points. So I cannot go to the Cow often to eat.
I found out through the school's newspaper that the restaurant might be taken out and replaces with a place that serves meat and has only a few vegan options. I was shocked and upset because once I move off campus next year Holy Cow was going to be my main source of food when I am on campus. I will not spend money at the EMU if it is gone. I will bring food to eat.
So tonight, my friend who I met through Vegan Freak and had lunch with the other week organized a meeting to find ways we can save the cow. I felt overwhelmed and out of place. Mostly because of my social issues in groups, but also because everyone had other issues for not liking that fact that the place was being taken away. I did not think of the other issues, but am glad that I know about them. I can see how the issue is not just for vegans, but students here as well.
I feel a bit better now that I ranted and had wonderful vegan cupcake.
7:48 p.m. - 2008-01-28
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