Honestly why do I continue to be tortured. I am going to put myself into ruins all because I cannot have a normal roommate. I thought things had change and that the rest of the school year I would not have to deal with roommate crap. NOPE!!! I was wrong, now my roommate and her bf are sleeping together (not sex thought) in her bed, while I am in the room.
While they may not be doing anything I still feel awkward due to my trust issues. Why do I have to continually deal with crap that hinders my school, mental heath and whatever else it messed up. I about to cry here because I once again feel trapped. I do not want to move out and it is too late to say anything. Regardless of what happens I will still be messed up and take a while to get back to normal.
Am I not suppose to be happy? How many times does I have to deal with this? Isn't twice enough, I am going to become ill again with the stomach pains. I will have to force myself to go see a counselor or somebody and try to de-stress. I cannot repeat this crap again. It had gone away for 4 years. It was gone, I was happy, but now it could all come back. All because I cannot seem to get a stable roommate or anything.
2:08 a.m. - 2008-01-27
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