Happy Thanksgiving!!! Hopefully everyone is having a nicer time that I am with their families. I am stuck in Eugene, in my dorm room all alone. There are people here, but none I really want to be with. All my friends here are either with family or host families. You know you are alone and have nothing to look forward to when the international students are out celebrating a holiday they do not understand while you, who have spent it with at least some family is alone eating microwave Tofurky and a whole pie and a half of vegan fruit pies while watching movies and listening to Irish music on LiveIreland.
Yes, I am a little bitter and was near tears a few times today. It was the worst when my aunt called me and asked me if there was anything I wanted to talk about and I said no. Not sure what she was looking for. I told her earlier that I was napping so she let me go back to bed. I am have been okay most of today except when I hear my friends are home or that they are bored at home.
Thanksgiving would have been small since my aunt and uncle went to Vegas to see my cousin and his family. So it would have been my other aunt, my parents, my sister and most likely my brother. Christmas everyone will be there so I guess it's okay that I am not there. Still it's the fact that I and others are alone when they should not be.
I have been getting a lot more messages from friends, mostly who live on my floor knowing I am here with nothing to do. I had two notes on my white board this morning several post on my wall on facebook and text messages. It nice, but at the same time it's a little like everyone telling you they are sorry when something bad happens to you. It stings and you just really don't want to hear it because it validates that you are really alone.
5:52 p.m. - 2007-11-22
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